~bloodstaind

friday i realized, while sitting at a table at a dance trying to keep myself from destroying a soda can anymore or doing anything else destructive,that whenever someone hurts me or i become sad the way i deal with it is through anger...well i believe last night i found a great way of dealing with that anger without physically hurting my friends/family/random ppl...i guess i just found out how much i can take b4 i stop careing enough to even ignore the way ppl are acting...it takes a hella lot of shit happing that pisses me off but hell its better than the way i was just a few days before...i can definitelly say that i havnt been seriously happy for hella long but today was pretty good part of the time i even forgot about everything bothering me and had fun...i know things will get better though...and really things arnt that bad right now neway...

just a thought: I believe if you go through your life without killing yourself in the end, then you are a success. Sometimes living is the hardest thing a person can do.